AMRITA, Chennai- The nth love

This is a tale of my nth love... can term it as n-2 with respect to business... most of the earlier ones were love at first sight, not a preferred form of sensible love. is it? Some of the well planned ones didn't take off due to reasons that I still can't exactly pin down to, some of them now seem to be no-brainer in the hindsight. 

Well AMRITA (Yeah, we are looking into alternative names, something more novel, which doesn't give you all sorts of unintentional results on Google, not yet registered and a parent company name) took off amid bit skepticism. Frankly, Rural healthcare and that too in TN (no offense, but i just wanted to migrate from South if opportunity presented) doesn't sound heavenly at first! But reality strikes sooner or later, there are no magical ideas; it boils down to the application and doing it. No amount of scenario analysis, ifs and buts will drive you to right answers. As Mr. Brensan puts it - Screw it lets do it. Answers come hand in glove with new questions, new problems. 

Memory lane: Some 6 months ago: College was coming to an end, one is expected and wants to act as a grown up, given that the real life is going to start soon. Yeah working in a startup with a business profile, connecting with the right people and being hell-bent on NO MBA did sound cool but is it the best one can muster esp. with every employer looking for experience and the usual Catch-22 of responsibility-experience-work? So to start with, I was just praying for an idea, some sort of a lightening and start on my own. And out of the blue: all the good intentions and networking pays off and with quite muddled intentions, no one knowing where the road will take us; a new venture was born.
Some deus-ex-machina does help the cause (Issues such as MBA, CFA, extensive job hunt got resolved by themselves) and i do believe in alternative universes : So when the going is right they fuse into one and only ultimate goal. Sometimes people who care got worried, but as always their questions were met with answers, not necessarily with the most eloquent ones but all they had was enough faith. When they ask about the progress of the venture I feel proud but not without a sense of obligation, long way to go. 

You start exploring, meeting new people; and the calling takes you to new places and then a new set of possibilities open up, eyes lit up, adrenaline pumping, oozing. Every time you look back, there is certain anguish at all the late discoveries, time lags. But the game is not won or lost in a day and with time we gathered bits of wisdom and moved ahead. It always feels like why didn't we get it right before, not rocket science is it? Doubts did creep in time and again, as a matter of fact the very quantum of success which used to be so sweet sometime back now became second nature and with stakes having gotten even bigger, hunger and frustration due to stagnation kept pace. 

I am ready to move heaven and Earth for this love. The journey is not a fairytale, but it will sure end like one. 
 
For more: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwkX6DhXvrg

Autumn rain on her doorstep

I dream of the place where your garden has no walls
Despite the past,
I’m holding on to your rope too fast
Longing for you to roll and end this cold
Just wonder why you are making this all a bet

It seems sometimes we need to roll the dice to end the dicey
I know it sounds a plunge
But if it’s from the beat,
it is more than mere heat.

The only things we share are the vast sky,
the red flesh which makes the living corpse live.
We’re made of blood and rust,
Wearing along with every thrust.
With dark shadows and hovering black clouds,
beats resounding the chilly quiet nights,
Unless we find something to cling on,
Someone to trust, love and sing…

As I travel the lonely, seconds are like years
Everything is turning blue
Sun is trying to kill the moon
As we look back
May be, may be, just may be
Had we taken that call
It could have been altogether a different trail
May be, may be
Nah, nah, nah I am sure
Just if the message went through,
if we had called it true...

Forever won't be like a moment
With tears rolling in the rain
But I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot
So tell me when you are gonna let me in
I’m holding on to your rope
Longing for u to roll…

Ma, i'll be back soon

Ma, you know
my distant memories
have a thing in common
all have you in every moment.

The callous may make the boulevard,
with the memory lane all red and green,
yet its your love in the breeze,
your aura in the greens,
which makes me laugh and breathe.

You gave birth to my soul,
the world i own
where bodies are commonplace,
like in a mud hole...
you gave me voice,
all in this noise.

The values you instilled,
are the uncanny wings
the aegis to my quest,
make me defy every blue
and sail through...

I'm sorry eminem, unlike you
she is my world, my light
the one
who seems to make it all right.
i can't imagine a world without you,
it is you who has made all this so true...

Ma, i love you more than anything else
but now it seems
you will have to let me go...
to explore this piquancy on my own
may be i will have to burn some fingers,
to realize what is not so cold,
to let the red flow,
and to know how the heart skips a beat or two,
in this beautiful world which has given you...

But please don't worry
please don't pray
it is just part of the play,
i am not going to stay...
all i can say,
i ll be back soon,
i ll be back home very soon...