The favoured child

Insomnia is the bite,
sour grey eyes,
sweat in bed 'n' cold vibes.

A demon is loose
i don't know, who?
I guess
i just left my job undone...

Death, suffering is all around 'n' beyond,
with no fault, no cause...

Today, ages ago, crying on my way
i said this hell, hey!
As a child i used to fight,
a hero will make i,
slaying the demon, salvaging some pride.

Nothing has come true,
I've turned twenty odd,
yet so f-dumb...
as i celebrate the day, my birthday, eh!
without a care for the less dear...

I've forgotten the chance, the dice
no longer care,"'I'm the favoured child".
Its just not my fight, not in my might;
but i lie,
am sorry for those,
who ain't phony,
ain't the favoured child!

I've got to do something.
My life has been so mean,
can i, will i paint a silver line?
Sand is slipping away
the fist is clinching by the day...

Oh! I've to, I want to... yeah
Oh! I've to, I want to... yeah
yeah! yeah! yeah!
Oh!Oh!Oh!
Nah! Here i go, all dreams,
a plunge into sleep,
the dark so bold,
the night so cold.
The favoured child has one more day to mourn....
The favoured child,The favoured child,
it is so cold...

Autumn rain on her doorstep

I dream of the place where your garden has no walls
Despite the past,
I’m holding on to your rope too fast
Longing for you to roll and end this cold
Just wonder why you are making this all a bet

It seems sometimes we need to roll the dice to end the dicey
I know it sounds a plunge
But if it’s from the beat,
it is more than mere heat.

The only things we share are the vast sky,
the red flesh which makes the living corpse live.
We’re made of blood and rust,
Wearing along with every thrust.
With dark shadows and hovering black clouds,
beats resounding the chilly quiet nights,
Unless we find something to cling on,
Someone to trust, love and sing…

As I travel the lonely, seconds are like years
Everything is turning blue
Sun is trying to kill the moon
As we look back
May be, may be, just may be
Had we taken that call
It could have been altogether a different trail
May be, may be
Nah, nah, nah I am sure
Just if the message went through,
if we had called it true...

Forever won't be like a moment
With tears rolling in the rain
But I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot
So tell me when you are gonna let me in
I’m holding on to your rope
Longing for u to roll…

how life sucks!!!

As i am juggling on,
a thought is nurtured on its own
why am i doing it? why not stop?
ain't it better to let it go,
may be just a nap or for a while
tired body or soul?
lethargy or just cold?


Well as seasons change,
fortunes turn into pain
life is being sucked into infinite boredom
we go on switching fields
the green grass always eluding
you raise the bar
but attitude, heart yet not eccentric...


Sooner or later you cut the chase
dreams seeing the sun rays...
you should be buoyant,

with gung ho zeal
but as it comes to fore,

the past catches you on the roll
seasons make a 360 degree
you now know it was just a respite,
phantom still high...


Is it too tough to crack a whip
may be life sucks, i need not kick!
life is not all roses, i was told,
but ain't leash too close
or something i am yet to unfold?


It seems life sucks big time...
but is the perception legitimate first?
i can't juggle, i can't switch,
there ain't anything as big
as a prophecy, we have to follow,
you can't call life tomorrow!!!


Looking for the answers, i took a stroll
in the hedge i explore...
i am far from what i thought of being,
got bullied and never followed the call from within


Soon i freed myself,
finally unrevealed the love that
i long back hid in the bushel
life doesn't suck,
it is the choices that we make,
which take hostage our fate


The darts make lot more sense
fractals fuse into coherence...
and i encore,
life sucks, no more...

You Know sunshine only when she is gone

You know sunshine when she is gone,
she was someone you could not hold on to
someone who just came along ,
'coz you felt the warm beyond the dawn
you don't remember all,
to deserve her all day long
you abandoned her, deserted her
without a care in the wind
only to realize her being your very wings...

as you dive below almucantar,
you get the lunatic within
she is fading away,
with a smile anyway
but why is she smiling?
why is she not running away?
probably coz my brother,
love is not digital as u say...

now you know what she has been,
vigor is water within,
makes blood only when you cut a string
you run to bring her home
but you just can't fly anymore...

she is sitting someplace in the dark,
how could you miss such a painter's dream
you wonder
you wonder dumbfounded...

but before you could say a word
you see, she is not lonely any more...
apparently spring has finally arrived
you amble your way to wine
alcohol is not going to make it all right, is it?
it was your fault
you've to live with it now on...
but now you know,
how pearls have to be valued back,
and how, you know sunshine
only when she is gone...
when she is gone...

Walking in the misty Moon

Life is a journey, not a destination
one moves amid all confusion
with the strings, taxes and toll,
we rust as we shove on...


There is no fun in driving alone,
unless you are stoned
so i call someone to walk me
walk me
past this misty moon


Looking all around, all over
sometimes staying awake till the first sun rays
dreaming when i get some respite
tired of walking alone
not withstanding what i owe


In a world full of souls,
why is this misery bestowed?
Is this such a tall order
or i just need not bother...


Having hallucinated many times,
presumed having found you
as it happens to be,
the quest still beats me
am i done with this?
but still writing this!!!
am i done with this?


People have changed and so have i
but solitude doesn't save hurt or cry...
it haunts me, it tames me,
still i walk on awaiting the dawn...